This morning, I had a major download while talking to my mother, and it’s all about ACCEPTANCE (from your parents).
When it comes to my parents, I truly feel like I’ve experienced the best of both worlds.
Starting with my dad, John Brooks—he has always been incredibly easy to talk to. He allows me to be myself, and even though he doesn’t always express his pride verbally, I can feel it through his actions. He shows it when he becomes my personal PR agent, especially when a family member or someone needs support. With my dad, I’ve always been able to speak freely. If I’m like either of my parents, it’s definitely him. I feel that my siblings and I represent the best of his personality. From him, I’ve always felt complete ACCEPTANCE. He never judges me, even when I’ve shared things about myself that weren’t the best. He responds with calm understanding, reminding me that I need to “see things through.” This is why the thought of disappointing him is devastating to me—it would send me into a deep funk.
Now, my mom, Bronnie Brooks, has always been different. Growing up, I often felt like she was hard to please—why did everything have to be done her way? As I’ve grown older, I’ve gained a deeper appreciation for her, though it hasn’t stopped us from having some EPIC CLASHES. Recently, though, my mom and I have been able to grow closer and really understand each other. This happened when I started seeing her as more than just a mother—I started seeing her as a human being and a woman. I realized that she has feelings (which I hadn’t acknowledged for a long time), along with her own fears, goals, aspirations, and setbacks.
Believe it or not, it’s my mom I now share everything with—even when I sometimes dump my emotions on her (I’ll admit that). I’ve come to realize that she will always go to bat for me, while also knowing when to put me in my place.
Today, I had the opportunity to pull my mother’s Human Design chart and discuss the basics with her. We’ll have two more sessions where we’ll dive deeper into her Personality and Design sides of the chart. What I felt/feel from her today is ACCEPTANCE—acceptance that her child is walking a different path, that her child has a purpose that may not resonate with others. I’ve shared with her my faith journey, ancestor veneration, conjuring, magic, numerology, astrology, dream interpretations, oracle card readings—ALL of it. Never once have I felt rejected. Her response has always been something along the lines of, “It feels like you’re walking your path, and I can always find some biblical reference to what you’re talking about, even if it’s not directly stated.”
There’s no greater feeling than having the person(s) who created you wholeheartedly accept who you are today—and who you’re becoming tomorrow. It gives me a sense of invincibility. I feel like, “If my parents are with me, I, surely, do not care what anyone…and I mean any one, else thinks.”
So, shout out to the parentals, John and Bronnie, for loving me, supporting me, and empowering me to be fully myself—yesterday, today, and tomorrow. I love you both, and my heart is overflowing with gratitude.
Amen and Ashé.
