CELEBRATION POST (This is long)
On the morning of September 14, 2023, I was scheduled to take a flight to Atlanta, GA to complete the second leg of my Tantric Shaman Practitioner initiation. I was very excited because we had been studying for the past six months.
On this particular occasion, my dad would not be taking me to the airport (as per usual), so I enlisted my mom. Prior to the trip, I told my mom that I had been having some trouble breathing especially when I was in Indianapolis vending at the Delta convention with AAPF (the reality is that I had been having trouble well before that but it was more pronounced in Indy). Leading up to the trip my mom had been voicing concern and that she wanted me to see a doctor so I booked an appointment but the appointment was not until I returned from GA.
On the morning of my flight, I was completely exhausted and contemplated not going on the trip because I was not feeling my best. I had ordered a wheelchair service to assist me at the gate but never made it to my flight. After expressing to my mom that I had considered not going on the trip, she lamented that she wanted me to cancel the trip and go to the doctor. I had assured her that I had an appointment upon my return but she was adamant that I get to a doctor as she said it – TO-DAY! Knowing that I did not want to cause my mom any additional grief, I called my facilitator and told her that I was going to the doctor to have my breathing checked and that I would try to fly out the next day.
Little did I know that when I arrived at Emergency Room at the UM-Capital Region Hospital that I would not leave for another 12 days – September 26, 2023. Today marks 6 months since I was discharged from the hospital and life has changed for the better.
Can I breathe better? Yes
Can I lift my legs without a struggle? Yes
Has the edema in my legs and feet gone done significantly? Yes
Is my heart functioning well? Yes
When I entered the hospital, I was 445.6 pounds. Today, I am hovering between 324 – 328 lbs. And while i am not at my goal, I am grateful to be here…I am grateful for what I have accomplished…and the journey continues.
My hummingbird, Antoinette (The practitioners in my cohort named ourselves Hummingbird Hologram after our first emergence), reminded me shamans are normally initiated after going through a major ordeal in their lives especially a health challenge. So while I did not get to complete the emergence physically – spiritually and energetically I had arrived. So Madame Turquoise is not just a name, it is indicative of the butterfly that emerged from the cocoon or more specific to me – the Peacock has spread her wings.
Thank you for everyone who has poured into me, loved me and cheered for me along the way. These updates are for you. It is my way to be accountable to you (and myself).
I will see you at the year mark and I hope to be healthier and happier than I am today.
#sixmonthspost #wellnessjourney #redefiningmycurves #liveincolor #africancentered
